I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to something, a day. And I don't know exactly when or what it is, but everyday I'm closer and closer and I wake up feeling more and more unhappy about it. Everyday is just a day and a day is so short, and I'm only a number of days away from whatever it is I don't want to get near to. And I'm just jealous of everyone for absolutely nothing. I'm so alone right now. Why am I posting this?