So I was washing my hair, and I a bunch of half empty and used bottles, and it occurred to me – I have like an obsession with shampoo.

 

I buy loads of brands and types of Shampoo, Shampoo and conditioner, conditioner.. why?  It’s like a quest, if I could just find the one shampoo that could make my hair shiny and glossy comme sur le television.

 

If I could just find this one bottle, I would have amazing hair.  Ofc it doen’t exist, my hair is dead, almost like my personality.  Joy.

 

You know what else I’m obsessed with?  Text messages.  I hate deleting things from my inbox.  It’s like tangible evidence that you have friends.   Something you can look back on when you’re alone, like hey people liked me once.. or just memories I guess.  The first text in my phone is from Jan 4^th of this year, from A, asking me if I was coming round to hers on Friday to go to a club night thing.   Then it jumps to March ‘what are you doing on a boat???’.  My inbox is like a photo album, only the stuff that reminds me of good times stays.  Or maybe texts from certain people too - isn’t that like everyone though?   I sometimes read them when I feel sad, whatever, my inbox only has 100 spaces though every day I have to delete more and more and it’s sad, because it’s like deleting a memory to make space for new memories.  It’s like erasing the past I guess, there will be a time when I have to delete all A’s texts to make room for new stuff.

I really should have been a photographer.

 

*Sniffs*

 

I miss texts from/texting A.  L