I always wished I could be a Russian Doll. A red one. With a big pair of bright blue eyes and painted on eyelashes and pink rosy cheeks. Really rosy. And my mouth would be painted on red like a bow. I’d have a flower on my chest - a rose - and two small little hands by my side. And then I could be un wrapped, two, three, four times until I was small. Really small.
What's the obsession with being skinny? From all of us, every single one of us.
It's like the one thing that unites us - the desire to be skinny, tiny, cadaverous, thin.
Why? It's senseless, it's as though we didn't have enough problems so we made ourselves one. The sex war is over, women have equal rights, now we need a new problem - lets all starve ourselves.
It's a trend propagated by women, for women. No matter how many times you see men saying that they don't mind 'a bit of meat on the bones', you still want to be skinny. It's more chic to be skinny, it's more beautiful, more haute couture.
I always hated being busty, because it stops me being skinny and makes me 'curvy', and who the **** wants to be curvy, it's just a synonym for fat.
If someone called me stupid or ugly, it's like whatever, like I care, I know I'm not..
But if someone called me fat I'd become really obsessive about it.
In fact whenever I'm drunk I normally get really emo about it. My friends always tell me I'm not fat at all, and I'm being ridiculous, but it doesn't make a difference.
Tbh I'm horrendously average, someone said one of my profile pics looked anorexic (lies), but it doesn't matter. I feel massively overweight, all the time.
But why? From a medical POV I'm pretty normal. And this applies to all of us; we're always trying to be skinnier and skinnier, as though the smaller you are, the more you're worth.
I always feel like my life would be so much better if I was a stone lighter, no matter how many times people tell me I'm 'fine' I still feel obese.
Everyday I look in the mirror, not at my face, but at my stomach. Is it any flatter? Is it any rounder? Whenever someone tells me I'm not fat I just think they're stupid, cause I know what I look like.
Do my thighs look okay in this? Is this okay? Are you sure? But look at that? No I don't think so.. a few weeks ago I left my house for 5 mins, then came back because I felt too fat. That's ******* ridiculous. I know I'm not fat, but I also know I'm fat. Honestly I could cry sometimes.
This applies to all of you, wtf is this about? It's anti-feminist imo, we fight each other instead of men. We compete against each other, the skinniest girl wins.
I even have friends go on Coke binges so they could not eat for 3 or so days and not feel hungry.
Honestly, don't you think it's all out of hand and it's just ridiculous? And the worst thing is people die to remain skinny. Actually die.
It's like the one thing that unites us - the desire to be skinny, tiny, cadaverous, thin.
Why? It's senseless, it's as though we didn't have enough problems so we made ourselves one. The sex war is over, women have equal rights, now we need a new problem - lets all starve ourselves.
It's a trend propagated by women, for women. No matter how many times you see men saying that they don't mind 'a bit of meat on the bones', you still want to be skinny. It's more chic to be skinny, it's more beautiful, more haute couture.
I always hated being busty, because it stops me being skinny and makes me 'curvy', and who the **** wants to be curvy, it's just a synonym for fat.
If someone called me stupid or ugly, it's like whatever, like I care, I know I'm not..
But if someone called me fat I'd become really obsessive about it.In fact whenever I'm drunk I normally get really emo about it. My friends always tell me I'm not fat at all, and I'm being ridiculous, but it doesn't make a difference.
Tbh I'm horrendously average, someone said one of my profile pics looked anorexic (lies), but it doesn't matter. I feel massively overweight, all the time.
But why? From a medical POV I'm pretty normal. And this applies to all of us; we're always trying to be skinnier and skinnier, as though the smaller you are, the more you're worth.
I always feel like my life would be so much better if I was a stone lighter, no matter how many times people tell me I'm 'fine' I still feel obese.
Everyday I look in the mirror, not at my face, but at my stomach. Is it any flatter? Is it any rounder? Whenever someone tells me I'm not fat I just think they're stupid, cause I know what I look like.
Do my thighs look okay in this? Is this okay? Are you sure? But look at that? No I don't think so.. a few weeks ago I left my house for 5 mins, then came back because I felt too fat. That's ******* ridiculous. I know I'm not fat, but I also know I'm fat. Honestly I could cry sometimes.
This applies to all of you, wtf is this about? It's anti-feminist imo, we fight each other instead of men. We compete against each other, the skinniest girl wins.
I even have friends go on Coke binges so they could not eat for 3 or so days and not feel hungry.
Honestly, don't you think it's all out of hand and it's just ridiculous? And the worst thing is people die to remain skinny. Actually die.
The Russian dolls are called "Matrioshka" - a more beautiful name imo.
ReplyDeleteYou won't listen because you've innundated yourself and hence drowning in a sea of savage celebrity media that insists anorexic = beautiful.
Let me categorically state anorexic != beautiful, no exceptions. I don't like stereotyping but I have zero respect and zero time for people who are far skinnier than they should be. What do you achieve by being skinny? Shit immune system? OCD about what you eat? Emo outbursts and constant striving for reassurance from friends, leading to friends losing patience with you, leading to you being more self-conscious about your weight, leading to striving reassuarance from your friends? Cyclical death-path, anyone?! Deeply unattractive to be skin+bone - for both physical and psychological reasons. Sure, being a fatty boom-boom isn't cool either (cycle in reverse). Normal is cool. Normal is healthy. Normal is sexy. Besides, there's a billion and one other ways to be unique, from dress sense to personality to hobbies to whatever the fuck you want... being anorexic just isn't chic, even in LDN.
"I always hated being busty" - pah, bullshit I say. Us guys love boobs. Why do low-cut dresses and tops exist? Same with push-up bras? So you can flaunt some eye-candy. We all have our own preferences with shapes and sizes but given the choice, could you honestly justify wanting to be flat chested? TSR is brimming with girls wanting more volume in their fun bags.
"I left my house for 5 mins, then came back because I felt too fat. That's ******* ridiculous." Although I lol'd, I'm glad you realise it's stupid! And on another note to end this anon comment, I'm also glad you've started posting a little more regularly, the sopulchritudinous blog was looking a little sparse for a while.
Heh, I went on holiday, then had stuff to do, and just cba to update tbh.
ReplyDeleteWoah btw - essay!
These points are silly to say the least. Why do you think guys say they dont 'mind a bit of meat on the bones'? Because they dont really have a choice because the majority of people are chubby/fat iin todays society. I really despise the hatred towards skinny girls, low fat is attractive, thin/slim is attractive, it is also perfectly healthy. Anorexic and skinny is a totally different thing, in as much as slightly over weight and obese are completely different things. IE you wouldnt go up to someone a bit chubby and go 'your going to have a heart attack chubster' but you can bitch about girls being skinny and stick thin etc. Jealousy anyone?
ReplyDeleteThen theres the whole thing that fat girls go on about how skinny girls are unfeminine which is a point I compeltely dont understand, a slim body with small flowing curves is far more feminine than chunks of fat bulging everywhere....