I'm so cold.  It's been so cold recently.  Freezing cold.  Snow, ice and rain, all hashed together; a conflation of cold.  A portmanteau if you like.  Fuck it's just freezing - but fitting.  It's like real life pathetic fallacy; misery of the inside reflected in surroundings.  I like it.  I think I'd be angry if it was sunny; fuck the sun right now.

I've never been a fan of Pathetique ^^, but it's my grandmothers favourite. Well - it was anyway, she played it at her funeral. I never went to see her body, remember, I was afraid. I didn't see it, I still haven't seen a dead body close. Urghhhhh, didn't I say I'd stop talking about her?

Merry Christmas?

On a change of subject, I've been listening alot to Starlight by Muse. Yes, I said it - Muse. I hate this band. Awful. Seriously, but not this song.

Listen to this line:

"My life... you electrify my life". Isn't that an amazing line? You electrify my life; it covers everything. It covers a multitude of things (lack of better word). It's not like saying I love you, or I like you, but simply you electrify my life. *You* make a difference.

I don't electrify anyones life. No one electrifies my life. How fucking sad. I wish. 2010 perhaps? My mum told me today not to be so self centred; I have nothing to be sad about, the World is my Oyster and life could be worse. I could be someone else, I could have missing limbs, terminal cancer, or like the Twilight series. That truly would be tragic.