Ffs

I am really stupid.

Last 10 minutes:

Go into kitchen

See cake.

Avoid.

For some reason unbeknown to me, I decide to eat it.  And then 2 slices of bread.  I hate doing this.  It's not even binging, I'm not compelled to eat, it's just there and I do it.  

Why?  Why?  Why?

Ffs.

Eat cake.

5 mins later... Allow

Go to bathroom.

Throw up.

Well, try to.  Wtf happened?  I can't even make myself throw up anymore?  I haven't done this in the longest time,

It's literally bile, and I'm coughing like I've got swine flu.

Louder than I realise.

Wake up the mother.

She's outside the door, whilst I'm coughing up half a lung.

Shit.

"Sorry, I'm just a bit ill.  Must be coming down with a cold".

I come outside, eyes are bloodshot, holding a fucking toothbrush (ffs)

That couldn't have been more obvious if it tried.

My life is amazing.  And I have such a fucking headache.